Thankful.

I have so much to be thankful for. I don't have the words to give justice to all the blessings that God has bestowed upon me.

*I thank HIM everyday for the life he's blessed me with. For a loving family, a wonderful husband, an awesome son & the miracle of life growing inside me. Every day I wake up I know is another blessing. Every breath another gift. I am undeserving of his LOVE, but he still loves me, perfectly and unconditionally.

Thanksgiving is my favorite holiday. Besides all the yummy food that puts me into a food coma every year, it's the overall feeling of gratitude and thankfulness that washes over me. It's the warm fuzzy feelings of families coming together to begin the holiday season.

This year we had a wonderful thanksgiving. My sister hosted it at her house and it was perfect. A house full of family, with kids running around, the sound of laughter and love filling every nook and cranny. It was perfect.

Thanksgiving also marked my 37th week of pregnancy. Another reason to be thankful. Full term. Blessed.

An Anniversary & A Birthday

Woooooooo, it's been such a long time since I've written anything. I'm so bad about blogging. I really should do it more because it helps me remember. I blogged a lot when I was pregnant with Caleb and I still love to look back and read those old posts and see the baby pictures of my little monster, who is now 7!!!

An Anniversary
September 6th was our 2nd wedding anniversary. Since it landed on a Tuesday, we decided to celebrate the following weekend.

Saturday came around and I was feeling so blah. I wanted to stay in bed all day, my body was just exhausted. Adam had made reservations for Ruth's Chris in SF and around 6 p.m, I told him to cancel the reservations because I didn't feel like doing anything. Just one of those days. Luckily, Adam persuaded me to get out of bed and we were able to get reservations at the Walnut Creek location of Ruth's Chris. I took a shower and forced myself to look pretty for my husband. I'm glad we went because dinner was DELICIOUS!!! We both had a great time and it was nice to spend some alone time with Adam. We didn't finish dinner until almost 11 and didn't get home until midnight. It was a lovely night in Walnut Creek, and it was a great way for us to celebrate 2 years of marriage.






Sunday we drove out to Half Moon Bay to eat at Sam's Chowder House, I'd been craving a lobster roll for awhile. LOVE their lobster rolls!! The weather in Half Moon Bay was really nice considering that it's usually pretty chilly and foggy. The beaches were packed and you could tell people were taking advantage of the sunshine. After lunch, we went to watch Warrior. ( I loved it, and spent most of the movie crying quietly, lol, pregnancy hormones?)








Great laid back anniversary celebration, I loved every minute of it.

A Birthday

Caleb, my baby, my first born, my little monster, the first love of my life, the one who has my heart, turned 7 on the 14th. SEVEN!!!!! It's amazing how fast time seems to be flying. I can still remember being in labor and meeting the guy who would change my life as if it was yesterday. He's an awesome kid. He's sweet, funny, charismatic (those dimples are killer), he's thoughtful, bright, social. I could go on and on about this guy. He's my favorite person to be around. I just love him so much, even when he's frustrating me to no end.



I took a half day of work to spend time with him on his birthday. We went to lunch. Then I took him to Toys 'R Us to pick a gift. We spent about an hour in that store, hitting up every aisle until he settled on something. He settled on a Spiderman web launcher that shoots out silly string, lol. When we went up to pay, he told the cashier that it was birthday and she gave him a birthday crown and a balloon, he was so happy. After Toys 'R Us, I took him and my sister to a laser tagging place that opened up near our house. They had a blast and Caleb won! For dinner, my whole family went to a new cajun seafood restaurant that just opened up. Caleb got both the things he wanted, a whole dungeness crab and sushi. He ate so much!! We brought a cake to the restaurant for him and when we were finished with dinner, our server brought it out for us to sing "Happy Birthday." Caleb was so surprised and happy. He loves being with my family and when we got home that night he thanked me for giving him such a great birthday.





Saturday, the 17th, was his birthday party. We had a magic theme and I hired a magician to entertain the kids. My friend brought his jumper and cotton candy machine as a gift to Caleb. Adam bbq'ed and we had about 20 kids show up along with about 30 adults. I was so stressed out planning the party. If it weren't for the help of my family and friends, I probably would've lost it. Everything turned out for the best though because everyone had a great time, especially Caleb. And that is the most important thing.

Baby Bump Progress

Week 14: Baby is the size of a lemon :)




Week 17: Baby is the size of an onion <3


I missed taking pics of week 15 & 16, life was just so hectic.

The Dreaded GD

Saturday morning at 7am, I woke up to get to the Labs early enough to get all my prenatal blood work done. At my last appt my OB told me she would order a sugar test since my blood work from my primary showed that I was pre-diabetic and I had developed gestational diabetes during my pregnancy with Caleb.

I get to the lab and they tell me about all my blood tests and she asks me if I'd been fasting for my sugar test. I said yes. She tells me it's the 3 hour test!! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!! I was not expecting a 3 hour test. I was prepared for a 1 hour test. But I took the test, drank the nasty limeade flavored sugar drink, and wasted my life for 3 full hours. The sugar drank made me nauseous and it took everything in me (plus the threat of having to start all over again) not to get sick. I let them poke my veins 4 times, by the time I left, I looked like a heroin addict with trackmarks.

So, I get my results back, lo and behold, my blood sugar levels were higher than the normal range. Bummer, I have GD again. Last night I get the call from the nurses office to let me know I have to participate in the program and to pick up my meter this Friday. Great, I have to poke myself 4 times a day and monitor my blood sugar levels and watch what I eat. Not good news for a sugar addict like myself. I guess my sugar loving ways have finally caught up to me because here I am with gestational diabetes, again.

Oh well, I will do everything I can; resist the sugar urges, go into withdrawal, just to have a healthy baby in the end. The sacrifices a mother has to make and well before the baby is even here!

Hello Sunshine!

Now we're talking! After a week of rain, I'm so happy to see the sunshine out. This is what spring is supposed to feel like in the Bay Area.

The weather is forecasted to be in the 60/70's all week. Hallelujah! Time to bust out spring dresses, shorts and bare feet!

I sent my little monster off to school in shorts today.

Next week my most favorite guy is on spring break, so I decided to take a couple of days off work to have some special momm & me time.

With beautiful weather here, the possibilities are endless! I'm thinking of taking him to a couple of museums, the movies, picnics at the park, bike riding and more. Plus, I just scored and awesome deal on horseback riding from Groupon.

Prayers

My thoughts and prayers go out to all those in Japan.

Fresh

I've been blogging on Xanga since 2004. I documented my pregnancy and found a great circle of women to confide in about the trials of new motherhood. We had playdates and became friends outside of the internet. It was a good place for my thoughts. Then, I just couldn't bring myself to write anymore. I didn't know how to express what I wanted to say anymore. I felt stuck. I kept trying but the more I tried, the more I noticed I was censoring myself.

Life happened fast. So many things changed. I broke up with my son's dad, my life became happier and less stressful. I became a better, happier mother.

I'm still working on being a better version of myself. Working to overcome my insecurities and to find happiness even when it seems hopeless. I'm trying not to dwell on things I don't have control over, which in turn has helped me find peace in my heart.

I owe it all to God. He has truly helped me find peace in my life. It's not easy. I've made so many mistakes and taken so many wrong roads but I know that He has forgiven me.

So I'm starting fresh here. God carries my heart. He carries my soul and I am forever thankful.

"Enter his gates with thanksgiving; go into his courts with praise. Give thanks to him and praise his name."
-Psalm 100:4, NLT